My friends really say that I’ll be surprised by how many guys like me…
I don’t get it…
If a guy likes me, won’t they like… aknowledge it? Or say I’m cute or something…?
Like seriously… If you like me… freaking say it… I don’t want hints. I want it straightforward, not IDK’s or MAYBE. I want ASSURANCE and INITIATIVE.
Really. I just want guys to give me butterflies.
Butterflies when I’m with him and when I’m not with him… when whenever I see something or hear something that reminds me of him I’ll feel the butterflies in my stomach fluttering crazily that I want to throw up.
Or when I hear his name, I would smile big from cheek to cheek just imagining him being with me.
I want a guy to accept me, and not compare me to someone else, because I’m me.
I’m April Mae. Not that girl, or JUST THAT GIRL.
Someone who will love me and my imperfections. And not compare me to that girl in the mall or that girl in a magazine… OR your EX GIRL. I’m a whole different person that may share some similarities with another person, but really… I’M ME.
And I also just hate guys that don’t take control of the relationship. I want someone to lead me, but I also want to put my opinions with it cause I am also an individual with my own mind and different way of thinking. I want someone decisive.
Someone that can carry out a conversation and not have AWKWARD SILENCES. I want someone that even though it’s silent, you get each other by just looking at them, and just taking it all in.
Someone who won’t be afraid to cuddle with me in the movies, the park, walking in the mall, eating…. just holding me and making me feel safe….
BUT I know, this won’t happen. I’m pretty sure this won’t happen anytime soon.
But feel free to prove me wrong…
Really, please do.
Also, I really feel I’m gonna end up with some guy that’s almost gay, but not gay.. yaknowwhatimean?!
LOL. BOYS SUCK. I hate boys. :]
I hate complaining in the internet, but hey, I leave feeling better !
As do I.
